Tuesday, July 18, 2006
I recently had a new task added to my job responsibilities. For most people, this would have been something that resulted in happy, proud feelings, knowing that you are being trusted with more at work and will have something else to add to the ol' resume. For me, though, it only caused anxiety and I am not exaggerating at all.
With the recent departure of our sales representative, I get to* now make her follow-up calls about current and potential jobs. Luckily, this does not include "selling" the company or required sales quotes that must be met. (If so, I would have quit that day. I don't do that shit AND I would be so bad at it that they would fire me anyway.) It literally is just me calling and asking for the status on jobs. To a normal human being, this would be cake. To a telephonophobic** person, this is a nightmare.
I received word of my new "To Do" two weeks ago and then last week I was taught what to say when I call. I even avoided making the phone calls in my "lesson" because I was adamant in my learning preference style. I said that I learned best by example and not by doing. It worked and I have yet to make a sales phone call.
But now, the time has come where I need to follow up on things. I've spent the last week organizing everything and while, yes, my files are immaculate and my spreadsheets are impressive, at some point I need to actually pick up the phone and dial. I can't make myself do it, though! I don't know how someone could be so insane as to think I could be good at this. And don't give me that bullshit about learning new things and being a team player and doing the responsibilities given to me. Making these phone calls is like if your boss came up to you and said, "Will you pop the zits on my back?" Did you just recoil at the thought? That's how I feel about making these calls.
*It was a toss-up between "get to" and "am being forced to against my will."
**My fear is NOT irrational! Ok, it's not a fear but a intense dislike. I don't have that actual phobia but the name is fun to say.