If there is one thing I am not good at, it's finding a job. My last real job was one I got because I knew someone and actually, same with the sub position I had, too. I get freaked out by job descriptions. I see "phone" and I shudder. I see "works closely with" and I think about past coworkers who were a handful in that kind of position. I see " [fill in the blank] years experience" and decide mine won't count. It's ridiculous! I not only have a college degree, but I almost have a masters degree and I have office experience and a buttload of customer service experience. I'm smart. I like math. I know computers. I'm a joy to work with. I rarely miss work.
And then I think about my location issues. I don't want to commute for a job that's not worth it. I have to be able to get to Fredericksburg by 6pm on Wednesdays. I have orchestra on Tuesdays. I actually don't want to have to quit my bookstore job because it's a really nice safety net for not only extra cash but insurance, too.
But Scarlet? Aren't you going to school to be a teacher? Why don't you apply for teaching jobs? Well, to be honest, they actually scare the crap out of me and yes, I know, that's a bit crazy. I saw this link for "elementary, middle and high school music teachers", which yeah, is ideal, BUT did you see how they said, "elementary, middle, and high school..."? I think I could do middle school. I'd have to be a Nazi, but I could do it. Elementary? I don't even know what elementary music teachers do. I can see myself disappearing midway through the year and sending an anonymous note that "Miss Rose has entered the Witness Relocation Program...sorry for the inconvenience."
I don't know what to do and it's sort of making me freak the fuck out.